The Awakening Paradox:
- Anna Kaminska
- Dec 19, 2025
- 4 min read
Why Spiritual Awakening Can Feel Like Emptiness (and What Comes Next).
There is a phase on the spiritual path that almost no one talks about honestly.
It’s not bliss.
It’s not light.
It’s not clarity or purpose or “high vibration.”
It’s the phase where everything that once motivated you quietly collapses — and nothing new has taken its place yet.
People come to me in this phase confused, worried, sometimes ashamed.
They say things like:
“I’ve done so much inner work… why do I feel flat?”
“I don’t want the life I had before, but I don’t know what I want now.”
“I feel awake — but also lost.”
If this resonates, I want you to hear this clearly:
Nothing has gone wrong.
In fact, something very real is happening.
Carl Jung understood this phase deeply — long before it was labeled “awakening” on social media. And his work offers one of the most grounded explanations for why this paradox exists, and how it resolves.
Awakening Is Not an Arrival — It’s a Threshold
Modern spirituality often presents awakening as an upgrade:
more energy, more purpose, more clarity, more drive.
Jung saw it differently.
In Jungian psychology, true transformation requires the collapse of the ego’s organizing structures. The ego — the part of us built around identity, achievement, roles, and external validation — cannot come with us into deeper consciousness unchanged.
So before something new can emerge, something old must dissolve.
This dissolution doesn’t feel like enlightenment.
It feels like emptiness.
Jung described this stage through the language of alchemy and called it Nigredo — the blackening.
It is the phase where:
Old identities stop working
External goals lose their charge
Motivation disappears
Meaning feels suspended
Not because life is meaningless —
but because the old sources of meaning have died.
Why Motivation Disappears After Awakening
This is the heart of the awakening paradox.
Before awakening, most motivation comes from ego structures:
proving ourselves
becoming someone
being seen
achieving safety, worth, or identity
When consciousness expands, these motivations lose their grip.
Not gradually — often suddenly.
So the psyche enters a strange in-between state:
You can’t go back.
But you can’t go forward the old way.
Jung never pathologized this phase.
He understood it as a necessary reorientation of the psyche.
The center of gravity is shifting — from ego to what he called the Self.
And the Self does not operate through force, ambition, or hustle.
The Void Is Not Emptiness — It Is Reorganization
One of the biggest mistakes people make in this phase is trying to fix it.
They try to:
find a new goal
force purpose
“raise their vibration”
override the stillness
Jung warned that this creates neurosis.
Why?
Because the psyche is not asking for direction —
it’s asking for space.
This phase is a psychological and spiritual gestation period.
Energy turns inward.
The unconscious becomes more active.
The nervous system recalibrates.
From the outside, it looks like stagnation.
From the inside, it is deep re-patterning.
What Actually Comes Next (According to Jung)
Jung described transformation as a process, not a moment.
After Nigredo comes Albedo — a phase of quiet clarity.
Not excitement.
Not fireworks.
But a subtle sense of alignment.
In this stage:
Meaning returns gently
Motivation reappears without pressure
Action feels natural rather than forced
And eventually, Rubedo — integration:
embodied purpose
creative expression
service that is not ego-driven
This is when people say:
“I don’t know why I do this — I just know I have to.”
That is the Self moving through you.
How to Move Through This Phase (Without Getting Stuck)
Jung did not offer quick fixes — but he did offer orientation.
Here is what supports this transition:
1. Stop Forcing Answers
If you feel pressure to “figure it out,” pause.
Purpose cannot be intellectually chosen at this stage.
It must emerge organically.
If something feels dead when you think about doing it — listen.
That’s information.
2. Pay Attention to Symbols, Not Strategies
The unconscious speaks through:
dreams
body sensations
images
recurring emotional themes
subtle impulses
Ask yourself:
What keeps returning quietly?
What feels alive without ambition?
What moves me even when no one is watching?
This is where the new orientation forms.
3. Allow Stillness Without Judging It
Rest is not regression.
Stillness is not laziness.
Waiting is not failure.
This phase requires nervous system safety.
You are not meant to be productive here.
You are meant to be available.
4. Integrate the Shadow — Especially Power
Awakening often dissolves false identities, but it can also suppress power if shadow work is avoided.
Unintegrated anger, ambition, visibility, or authority can stall the process.
Jung was clear:
“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”
Your vitality lives there too.
When Motivation Returns — It Feels Different
Motivation after awakening does not feel like pressure.
It feels like inevitability.
You don’t chase purpose anymore.
You respond to it.
Action becomes expression.
Work becomes transmission.
Life becomes participation rather than performance.
This is individuation — not becoming special, but becoming whole.
If You’re Here Now
If you’re in this phase, let me say this plainly:
You are not behind.
You are not broken.
You are not “doing awakening wrong.”
You are standing at a threshold where old structures have fallen away — and something more authentic is reorganizing itself through you.
This is not the end of the path.
This is where it becomes real.





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